Could you make it worse

Say what you say

I might pull a face

But what can I do

You mired in hate

                   And me amazed

A person can be so rude

Forgive and forget

But not regret

The being

                  A doormat

You can’t approve

But appeal

Oh like me, like me

Aren’t I good enough?

God knows, I try

I pray I wish I desire I crave

I am polite I listen to

                   What you do

I like listening to hip hop too

And, well, you know

You can’t build a conversation on that

You can’t

You need to be comfortable

                                 And have banter

With the person

Even after you part

You still couldn’t say

What was said

That is friendship

So do me a favour please

And show me respect

Don’t put your gum in my hair

Don’t tear my homework

Don’t strangle me with my own tie

Yes, I am weak

      I can’t fight back

I am a coward

I know I know I know

I don’t know what the right remedy is

For your treatment

But will you leave me

                               Leave me be

                                                        Please

Stop your glares

And your stares

I feel like I am

Being judged

Every time I step in front of the class

I am trying to be

                     Good enough

God knows, I try

But I only make you laugh

When I trip

              Over the foot

                You have stuck out

This isn’t fair

I can’t be ignored anymore

And treated like your

                              Soft toy

It is killing me inside

I am afraid of everyday

When I get out of bed

And I dread

Think of all

The possibilities

The time you have

What you will inflict on me

                                        Today

                                        This week

                                         Next month

                  And forever after that

I can’t eat my breakfast

My hands tremble

I forget tasks

I really am in a mess

How can I avoid you?

And have a trouble free day

I don’t know

           And am quite tired

I feel like sleeping

But you interrupt that

Where is peace?

How do I get there?

I never cared

               But now

Without my girlfriend

I am lost

              Alone

And not at ease

I am a loser

I am stupid

I am useless

Oh please stop this

                           Hurting

As a fist lands in my eye

And a tear dribbles

Down my cheek

On my knees begging

                              In the toilets

But you are kicking me

                              Over and over

Aren’t I good enough?

God knows, I try

And I thought I knew

                              But now I do

I am not loved

         Nor liked

I am not a person

        But food

For the sharks

And with the scraps left

I am

I take the chord

                     From the shed

And I whack it around

                            A private tree

In the woods

I put my head

              In the noose

I made

     To fit

I attempt to think

                          Of my happiest memory

But I feel only

               Thudding pain

And my feet

                   Lifted from

The ground

My life draining away.